January 17, 2022, trinityesoterics.com
Dear Ones, you can’t surrender and be in ego at the same time, because the ego’s preferred state is control, not flow. In fact, if you try to surrender, the ego will likely try to prevent you from taking that empowered step through the use of fear and doubt.
To be clear, the ego is not the enemy. Far from it! It is a beloved and necessary part of you that is required to be in the body, on the planet, and having a human experience. It is simply not the part of you that you wish to be in charge of all decisions, because it is very much about wanting things to stay the same in a controlled or contracted state, while your soul is seeking freedom, growth, and expansion.
So if you are having trouble with surrender, we suggest you sit with your ego and simply reassure it. Let it know you always will need it and that you love it, and that it is a very important aspect of you. Then, let it know that you are the wise adult, and you will be making decisions that are best for all aspects of you. Feel into that. Can you feel how empowered you are and how the ego settles under your loving guidance?
Trying to eradicate the ego in the name of spirituality only activates it more, and puts you in a state of resistance to a vital part of yourself. It is, in a sense, trying to practice separation consciousness with yourself in an attempt to move into unity consciousness, which simply cannot work.
It will only keep you in a perpetual state of tug of war within yourself, expending all of your energy but getting nowhere. By accepting all parts of yourself, and knowing yourself to be part of an even bigger whole, you will find the act of surrender much easier. From there, true progress can be made on your journey.